In Controlled, her debut memoir, Neesha Arter shares the year of her life that followed a harrowing crime. When she was fourteen years old, she was sexually assaulted by people she had no reason to mistrust. She tried, subsequently, to reconcile feelings of guilt and shame by searching for a means of control. In a whirlwind of legal proceedings, family conflicts, and loss of identity, Arter succumbed to anorexia as the only way to find her childhood self in an unraveling world. Ten years later, she is able to look back with healing insight about the importance of speaking uncomfortable truths.


“Fearlessly intimate and strikingly honest, it’s a gripping tale not simply of survival, but the refusal to be silenced.”

The Daily Beast


“Arter not only illustrates the devastating effects of her assault, the familial betrayal she faced, and her own self-harm, but also chronicles how she conquered these tremendous adversities.”

Marie Claire


“Neesha’s brave spirit should be a beacon of hope for others and her compelling account, while harrowing in places, will enlighten readers of any age.”

The New York Observer